Day One. ´´Writing for the Wait Loss Blog.´´

Over the past 2.5 years I have lost 85 pounds and have recently gained 25 back. At my age, there is no excuse. During the time of the 85 pound loss there was no question in my mind. I had found the answers within myself and had changed my lifestyle in a way that made sense and worked. Under stress recently, however, I reverted to heavy and unhealthy eating, enough to gain weight.... again. Now I must move past that relapse and back into the way of eating and living which brought me such pride. I love the blog, 266, which starts with the anniversary video of a year of weight loss, which features Heather Small singing, "What Have Ya' Done To Make You Feel Proud." I am a late life Mom to a son who struggles with his weight because of triple congenital amputations and we are going to work on this together. I will not allow myself to look back; I'm moving forward and am carrying the success of 2 years with me; I will lose the recently gained weight and continue on to my goal.

Today is the lst day of my commitment to finish the rest of the job. The rest of the job means finishing what I started and making it absolutely permanent. It means eating the way I already know how to eat ~ without deprivation and with clear discernment. Discernment means choosing the right, delicious, and healthy foods which keep my blood sugar stable and my body working well. It is not just about food; it is about mind, body, and spirit working well together and with joy. I have adopted children and I am needed; not to take care of myself is a moral issue.

I am at the computer, a bowl of fresh blueberries {1/2 cup} next to me and a cup of good fresh hazelnut coffee with a dash of skim milk. I am taking the time to taste the blueberries and savor their flavor. They are the best I have eaten in many years. I bought them,peaches, plums, and a big musk melon from the produce stand which just opened. The farm is beautiful and impecable, a space of beauty on a busy road between Groton, Connecticut and the bridge to Norwich.

It is a beautiful rainy Sunday morning in southeastern Connecticut. I am happy in my work and grateful for my life. I have many things to do in order to finish the job ~ of mending my life, my finances, and my physical well-being. But on this morning in July, I am employed in a job I love, living in a lovely little house with 5 of my adopted children, and every day I am getting stronger mentally. I feel needed and appreciated. Most of all I am beginning to appreciate myself. I have abundant and amazing good health and energy. I have slept well last night for 10 hours, following a ´´movie night´´ with my kids. We saw a movie last night that created so much laughter ~ healing, silly laughter. There is so much to be grateful for ~life,health, family, and work! It is a day to begin the process of finishing the job.

I am grateful for my life ~ it is a completely surprising and happy change. I still have blueberries in a bowl. I have committed to drinking 8 glasses of water a day.